“Songs of Innocence and Experience” is a personal self-portrait/collage project that I’ve been working on since the beginning of lockdown as a reflection on post-modern love.
I always had an obsession with romantic beauty and a tendency to romanticise my relationships.
Romantic love is predicated on the notion of failure because it’s the clashing of expectations and reality and this clashing of the notion of ideal love and pure reality becomes a postmodern "authentic tragedy”. I’ve been obsessed with paintings and novels of unfulfilled love stories, like Goethe’s Sorrows of Young Werther, Pushkin’s Onegin, Millais’s Ophelia, or Waterhouse’s Lady Shallott – and I often positioned myself into the same “role” in my own personal life. I began to romanticise the heartaches throughout the years which created a pattern.
Now that I am turning 30 in a few months time, a new breakup and the reality of lockdown put me in a really strange emotional state and at the same time It also allowed me to start working on myself , and this whole project became sort of an art therapy and a way of self-acceptance.
My whole body of work is about identity, love, sexuality and gender, and using my past relationships as a subject for my work is something I have done before, but this time it coincided with me becoming conscious of my self traumatising dating habits and this project became a part of my healing process.”